Shadowmog

So. Er... just a while ago, a friend of mine gave me my own FTP Server. ^_^ If anyone doesn't know what that is, then I'll explain:

FTP basically stands for File Transfer Protocal. It allows you to upload your files online (Doesn't even matter what those files are; can either be video's, MP3's, midi's, pictures, anything.) and only you can access them.
I honestly think it's pretty cool. It's, like... a wireless external hard drive. You get to put your crap on it, without having to lug around a flash drive or a... er, box of memory. (An external hard drive.)
Anyhow. Now for the point of this journal. Anyone wanna share the server with me? I mean... I'll need to note you guys with the information as to how to even get IN, but either way, I really like it. Just think of it as a file hosting website.
Just note me if you're interested.
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Anyhow. These past couple of days have been hectic. @_@ I got lectured by one of my best friends, though that lecture was really needed, and my friend's getting worse.
Honestly... I have to admit. Lately, I haven't been trusting in God with my whole heart that he can help my friend and everyone else out of this. Heck, it took until Hannah lectured me about it to finally realize how stupid I've been for not entrusting all of my problems to God. But y'know what? I'm all right with what she did. Even IF she got a little mad at me, what she told me really hit hard. It's... definitely something I need to improve on.

Also. Courtney, if you're reading this... you should also try to improve on all of this. Like you told me on the phone last night, you haven't been trusting in God with all of your strength, with everything. Even I haven't. We both have a minuscule understanding of what God can really do if we just believe He can do it. And we need to improve on that. If we do... things will get better. Trust me.

...Anyhow. Over and out.
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EDIT: Forgot to mention. The FTP server can hold 100 GB's of stuff. Which is a lot, by the way.
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EDIT: Meh. I find this pretty cool. Anyway, here goes.
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1. What was your first impression of Courtney?
-Um... I like-liked her. XD (But remember, this was back in, what, preschool.) Ever since then, she's... been one of my best friends.

2. Have you ever been in Fable's house?
-NOAP.

3. What would you do if Cat from Hell confessed love to you?
-...Holy shi*.

4. What is one thing Rachel isn't exactly made for?
-Doing the crazy kind of stunts that I do.

5. Does Rachel have any pets?
-Um... I dunno. I think her dog passed away a while back ago, but I don't know if she has any other pets.

6. If you could do anything with Daniel, what would it be?
-JUMP OFF CLIFFS AND LAND IN SNOW FTW

7. What's Philip to you?
-I dunno... a crazy friend who likes guns? I guess he's just an ordinary friend...

8. Danielle is actually Cat from Hell in disguise, you know.
-...That... that can't be...

9. What song could be Hannah's theme song?
-I don't really listen to music, so from my vast assortment of video game music and anime music, I'd have to choose Sit Beside Me. Forgot what game it came from, though. Possibly Suikoden?... I dunno.

10. What song could be Fable's theme song?
-No clue.
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So, uh. Learned some horrible information about the Cat from Hell. I'm scared. Really. I am.

Yeah. Everyone's doing it. I wanna, too.
I'll try to ask for cheap stuff, though. xD
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STEP ONE
Make a post (public, friends-locked, filtered...whatever you're comfortable with) to your DA journal. The post should contain your list of ten holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a ______ icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("all I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV."). The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your DA or link to this post so that the holiday joy will spread.

STEP TWO
Surf around your friends list (or friends' friends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now, here's the important part:

If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use -- do it.

You need not spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf -- to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not -- it's your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Give, and you might receive. and you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.
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One: A Deviant Art Subscription. (3 months, 6 months, 12 months, doesn't matter.)
Two: www.drmcninja.com/bookstore.ht…
Three: Gift art. I guess.
Four: A new icon. My current icon bores me.
Five: HAUGZ. (Hugs.)
Six: Possibly a... new Bible?
Seven: A new book. I NEEDZ ONE.
Eight: Something for Courtney, I guess. She's been going through a tough time, and she at least deserves that much, if not more.
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If it's anything material, then note me asking for my address. The majority of you should already know, since the majority of my watchers are local.

So. Uh. Yeah, you know how my past journal entries were filled with words of moping and despair? Well, I don't feel like moping an despairing anymore, simply because I don't really have a reason to do so.
But now I don't know how to make a regular journal entry. ;_; But meh, I'll try.

First thing's first. A friend of mine is undergoing... pretty intense psychological treatment. I'm not telling who, but said person frequents Deviant Art quite frequently. I just... want you all to pray for said person. Said person needs all the prayer said person can get, and then some.

Other than that, nothing much has been happening recently. School is the same old, same old, and Chorus is, of course, the worst class for me in terms of socializing with others. Seeing as they only talk about their cell phones, iPods, music, movies, and their boyfriends/girlfriends. All of which I have no interest in talking about.

Anyhow. I'm stealing the prayer list idea from Hannah. Simply because I also think it's a good idea.
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~Prayer List~
-A friend of mine is undergoing intense psychological treatment. Pray that said person will follow through with whatever is going on.

Wow, um... what a week. Or more.

So, uh. How to start...

First of all, I'm grounded. I'm getting bad grades, and my parents decided to take away my computer for the grades I'm getting. So... yeah. I'm also grounded from the internets upstairs in their room. :
But anyway.
I've been feeling worse and worse these past couple of days. Heck, in fact, I'm almost certain that it isn't depression I'm dealing with. Maybe... I dunno. I wrote something in class a couple of days ago that just about sums it up:

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Is this our fate? Our destiny?
Is it our destiny to suffer so, just because of our wisdom?
Our wisdom, our knowledge, makes us unique. We are masters of the laws of life. But such wisdom beckons forth suffering.
What I wouldn't give to be a fool, to be oblivious to the laws of life. But once you taste the knowledge, taste the wisdom that is the laws of life, you strive for more.

Yet it hurts.

You become too painfully aware of how corrupt the world is and how ignorant humans are. Mortals are nothing more than incarnations of sin. Incarnations of greed. Incarnations of lust.
Yet such things are simply impossible to defy. Even the wisest of the wise have fallen to greed, to lust, to power... to killing.
Yet the fools think nothing of it. It is their world, their problems. And they think nothing of it. The wise suffer due to their awareness of the laws of life, but the fools are unaware of such things.

To be a fool... would be one of life's greatest treasures.
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Basically... I'm too painfully aware of stuff. For example, if I were to get a girlfriend of some kind, I'd eventually have to break up with her. And we'd both be hurt, and it'd lead to unneeded problems. So in my mind, why have any relationship during high school whatsoever when you can just save yourself the trouble?
And another thing. I... *sigh* have some sort of mad crush on someone. I think I do, at least. I'm not saying who, but... *sigh* I dunno. It's not worth it to get together with her, or even try to do so. I mean, what's the point? We'll eventually have to break up sooner or later.

Or maybe it's not a crush at all. Maybe it's just a really good friend... I honestly have no clue. I don't even know the difference between love in an intimate kind of way, and love in a best friend kind of way.
It's pathetic.

...But anyhow. Enough of such things. Over and out.

ANIME/MANGA NERD
[x] You watch anime.
[x] You read manga.
[ ] You buy/collect anime DVDs or manga volumes.
[x] You own some other form of anime/manga merchandise.
[ ] You have referred to an anime character as 'hot' before.
[ ] You have cosplayed.
[ ] You have done so in public.
[ ] You have been to an anime/manga convention.
[ ] You have created/joined a fanclub for an anime/manga character.
[ ] You have created/joined a hateclub for an anime/manga character.
[ ] You have squealed when you found out somebody had the same name as an anime character you knew.
[ ] You enjoy drawing anime.
[ ] People you now know you as the 'anime' person.
[x] You know that it is pronouced 'mawnguh' and not 'manga' like it is spelled.
ANIME/MANGA POINTS: 4

ART NERD
[x] You like art.
[ ] You actually consider yourself an artist.
[ ] When using art supplies, the brand of them matters to you.
[ ] You have a favorite brand.
[ ] You have asked for art supplies as a Christmas/birthday gift before.
[ ] You give people your drawings as gifts.
[ ] People actually ask for your drawings.
[ ] You are known as 'the art person' at your school.
[ ] Instead of just 'brown' or "pink', you'd be specific; it's 'sienna brown' or 'blush pink'. Or whatever.
[ ] You have taken an art class outside of school.
[ ] You have considered a career as an artist.
[ ] Your school papers are always covered in doodles.
[ ] You have a favorite artist.
[ ] Your drawings have been framed.
[ ] You carry a sketchbook with you everywhere you go.
ART NERD POINTS: 1

MUSICAL NERD
[ ] You play a musical instrument.
[ ] You play more than one instrument.
[ ] You actually really enjoy playing your instrument.
[ ] You've given your instrument a name.
[ ] You've participated in an extracurricular activity for your instrument.
[ ] You are known by what you play.
[ ] You listen to classical music.
[ ] You are wondering whether that refers to the classical music genre or the classical music time period.
[ ] You have a favorite composer.
[ ] All of your friends are from your band/orchestra class.
[ ] You write music.
[ ] You've had discussions with your friends about music; your favorite composers/instruments/musical time periods/key/etc...
[ ] You have considered a professional career with your instrument.
[ ] You are never nervous playing for other people.
MUSICAL NERD POINTS: 0

VIDEO GAME NERD
[x] You play video games.
[x] You own more than 4 different video game systems.
[x] You've had debates over which system is the greatest.
[ ] You play video games every day.
[x] You have played a video game for over 10 hours.
[x] You have songs from your favorite video games on your MP3.
[x] You love to talk about video games.
[ ] You memorize the dates for when a new game is being released.
[x] People know you as the 'gamer' person.
[x] You spend more time on video games than you do hanging out with friends.
[x] Your gaming system is in your room.
[ ] You have preferences when it comes to what company your game came from.
[x] You've had debates over which company is the best.
[x] You keep playing a game until you beat it.
[x] It makes you angry when you found out somebody looked up cheat codes on the Internet to beat their game.
VIDEO GAME NERD POINTS: 12

COMPUTER NERD:
[x] You use the computer every day.
[x] You have an account/username on some sort of social website.
[x] You go into random Internet chatrooms. (Not the bad ones, mind you. And I don't like to call them "chatrooms". More like IRC channels.)
[x] You spend at least 2 hours a day on the computer.
[x] You use computer faces; : D XD XP D: ^_^ >.> and etc.
[x] It is hard to go a day without using the computer.
[x] You spend time in online forums.
[x] In the forum/chatroom you use, you are known there by everyone else.
[ ] You own a website/forum.
[x] You have friends you have only met online.
[ ] You have/have had a girlfriend/boyfriend you have only met online.
[ ] You have actually met an online friend in person.
[ ]U cn ezly rd 'txttlk.'(If you don't know what this reads as say no.)
[ ] You have said 'lol' or 'omg' in speech that is not online.
[x] You can type really, really fast.
COMPUTER NERD Points: 9

Stolen from . Because I can.

EDIT: I FORGOT TO TAG.

I tag:


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Anyhow. Since my ideas on current matters are all jumbled up inside my head and I can't decide on what to say about it, I'll say nothing.
I need time to think.